It’s the end of 2019. Along with holiday sentiments from my friends on Facebook and Instagram there are also posts about being happy 2019 is coming to close. For one reason or another, many people felt 2019 didn’t go their way or give them the outcome they had hoped for. But take a moment and think about your 2019; the good, the bad, the undecided.
I have a tendency to be one of those people who can’t wait for a “new year” because “this year is going to be different!” Maybe it’s because I am in a better place today than I have been in quite some time, or maybe it’s because this better place I’m in has allowed me to see more clearly than I ever have before. Either way, this might be the first time I haven’t wished for a “new year” to make my life better. Because let’s face it – the year we write down does not hold special, magic powers. The people we decide to be and the choices we make affect the outcomes in which we “blame” the year. And I think it’s time we recognize and admit that.
I took note of all the things (again, the good the bad and the undecided) that took place in my 2019. In chronological order, here’s what I came up with:
- Maxed out my student loans and had to pay out of pocket for tuition.
- Graduated with my second bachelor’s degree.
- Visited two states I have never been to before (Missouri and Kansas).
- Stepped foot on my college campus for the first time ever (as a two-time undergraduate alumni).
- Host family for the Morehead City Marlins (again).
- Landon started high school at my alma mater – Go Rams!
- Ran my first (and only) half marathon.
- Had to start paying my student loans back.
- Started seeing a counselor.
- I fell in love.
- Celebrated 10 years working with MCCS.
- Had my breast implants removed after 15 years.
- Landon got his driving permit.
- Had new floors put down in my house.
- I lost my best friend.
- We adopted a kitty (really, he adopted us).
- I was a bridesmaid in a long-time friend’s wedding.
- Joined a running group.
- Referred to a neurosurgeon for my back.
Obviously, more than that happened but that list just sums things up. There was a lot of good. There was also a heart-wrenching bad. If 2019 taught me anything, it’s that anything CAN and WILL happen. Regardless if you are ready for it.
So, while I wrap up this year, instead of hoping for a better 2020 (because honestly, my 2019 was a pretty amazing year) I am going to remember the good things and use the bad things to help me get through the tough times. The bad things, whether we like it or not, are inevitable. I am going to move forward with the notion that your time will come when the time is ready, and we will never know when that is. So, 2020 will be full of love, friendships and zero regrets.
When it’s time to write 2020 instead of 2019, remember the ink that wrote the date doesn’t dictate your outcome for 2020. You do.