Maybe Swearing Will Help

  • Teleworking
  • Wedding Planning
  • Job Searching
  • Resume Writing
  • Home Schooling
  • House Shopping (in Wisconsin)
  • Planning a Move
  • Packing the House
  • Need Toilet Paper
  • Jason’s Retirement
  • Running Club

The list goes on………

I am not one to complain (at least for everyone to hear!) but I’ve got A LOT going on… and the coronavirus is not making it easy for me. Yes, I know, there are people dying from this and I need to be more sensitive. I am not trying to make this all about me. So please don’t use my blog to attack me with your “medical expertise” and current stats that I can easily find on CDC.gov. My blog is my opinion and it’s a way for me to vent, without posting every gripe I have every couple of hours via Facebook along with everyone else. So here I am, looking at what needs to be accomplished over the next couple of months and coming to terms with the fact that it might not get done. At least the way I hoped for.

Believe me when I say I am a planner. Seriously, I plan out everything, with plenty of time to spare. Why? Because it’s easier and less stressful that way. Well, the coronovirus was the universe’s way of saying to me “we don’t care about your plans.” The bright side is that I am forced to sit back, and take it one day at a time. Which is something I’ve been needing to do for a long time. But damnit…. I don’t wanna! Maybe, just maybe, swearing will help!

I recieved this awesome coloring book in the mail today called, you guessed it, “Maybe Swearing Will Help.” It was from my friend Roxie. I laughed when I opened it and thought, YES – this is exactly what I need to take my focus off of everything that is no longer going to work out the way I wanted it too.

So here’s my hope for you…. consider this time a gift. A gift that you didn’t want, but can’t exchange or return. Yes, we might be missing out on watching our kids play sports, or seeing them off to school. We might not be able to have birthday celebrations at our favorite eateries or meet the girls for drinks after work. We might only be able to see our friends via FaceTime, Zoom or Skype. But when all this clears, we will go on with our lives the way we intended. We’ll go back to “not having enough time” to do certain things again or we’ll gripe about gas prices and traffic. But right now…. enjoy the unknown if you can. Because nothing is going as expected and we don’t know how long this will last.

Friends, Family, BBQ and Beer

First and foremost, I need it to be known that the most amazing and wonderful human being on the planet has asked me to marry him!  I’m not sure what I’ve done to deserve such a caring, selfless and loving man but boy do I thank my lucky stars EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. for him.  That being said…..

I’m getting’ married, bitches!

Ok ok ok….. I might be a little over the moon excited about marrying Jason.  Just a tad bit anyways.

This is a second marriage for both of us.  We have both been divorced over 8 years (our divorces were finalized exactly 2 months apart).  We have two separate households, routines, bills, kids, responsibilities, etc.  So, having a wedding isn’t necessarily something important to either of us.  Don’t get me wrong, we are incredibly excited and cannot wait to get married.  We just aren’t flashy people. My parents spent a small fortune on my first wedding.  That was a huge waste of money.  But I was young and wanted to feel like a princess even though I didn’t feel like one in my relationship.  Well, that is definitely not the case this time around.  Jason treats me like a queen.  And because of that, all I care about in this wedding planning business is becoming Mrs. Van and spending my life with him.  And basically, you can do that at the justice of the peace.

The day Jason and I say “I do” it will be about our two families coming together as one. That is what is truly important to us. Our kids are the only people who will be standing up for us. Akela (my future daughter) is my only bridesmaid (and coincidentally will be spoiled the rest of her life because I will finally have a daughter – I digress). Landon and Brayden will stand next to Jason. In fact, Landon is walking me down the ‘aisle’ and giving me away. (I write ‘aisle’ because it’s not much of an aisle as it is more of a graveled area of approximately 10-15 steps) The only reason we are having a wedding ceremony is for the kids. They deserve to be a part of our special day. It’s tough being a kid raised by your single parent without a lot of help from the other side. (And by help, I mean guidance, mentoring, communication, etc.) So, they deserve the party.

Our wedding isn’t going to flashy or lavish.  It isn’t going to be expensive.  But it is going to be filled with friends, family, bbq and beer.